The Hardest Lesson I’ve Had To Learn

The Hardest Lesson I’ve Had To Learn

“How abundant are the good things that You have stored up for those who fear You, that You bestow in the sight of all, on those who take refuge in You.” // Psalm 31:19

Hey guys! Happy Sunday! I hope 2019 is treating you well!

So, I love documenting lessons I learn on my Christian walk. In fact, I even have journal of them. I even wrote a blog about the 17 things I learned in 2017. But today I want to share with you by far the hardest lesson I’ve had to learn. One that for the longest time I just couldn’t seem to get. One that I heard about over and over, yet I never quite understood how I was supposed to walk it out in my own life. The lesson, essentially, of letting go and letting God, and taking life one day at a time.

I tell people I’m a dreamer by nature, and I am. I’m a writer. A writer, by definition, is by nature a conscious dreamer (Okay. Maybe not in Websters, but I’ve heard it defined like that). I also have the gift of faith (I wrote an article about that on 412teens.org if you’re interested in learning more about that). Put these two things together and in my heart and soul I think I could run a marathon around the world in 7 days if I wanted to. The problem I’ve found with this is that when things don’t go the way I think they will, or don’t go the way I expect them in faith to go, then I get a little … frustrated. I’ve been in a particular situation for the past few years that has tested me for a while, and it seemed to be coming to a head in late 2018. For the past few years, I’ve wanted to relocate. To move from the state I was born and raised in to another part of the country. The state I want to move to has differed throughout the last couple years, as well as the reason of wanting to relocate in the first place, but the desire has always remained the same. I. Want. To. Move. I Want. To. GO.

I have prayed about this very thing almost every day for two and a half years.

Two.

And.

A.

Half.

Years.

Every year I think, “This is the year it’s going to happen. This is it!” And so I get all excited (for one reason or another), only to be left disappointed when the time passes, the decision to stay has been made. I recently experienced a situation where I thought I knew what God’s will FINALLY was. Crystal clear. The answer to my constant prayer, my heart’s deepest desire. Only to find out that … again … it might be delayed and possibly not play out like I expected or wanted.

So, here’s the thing. The past few years, my mom has told me over and over again that I just need to wait. That God would reveal His will when it’s time.

This frustrated me beyond comprehension. I thought we should be seeking, exploring, researching, GOING. It wasn’t until recently that I finally realized what she meant this whole time.

If you find yourself in a similar situation, I want to give you some encouragement today. If you’ve heard about surrendering to God, but you’re not sure what that looks like or how you’re supposed to live with the future in mind while keeping your eyes fixed on today, here’s what I’ve learned about all this:

When you keep your eyes on God with the intent to follow Him, and you trust that He’ll come through just in time, you can let go of trying to control everything and learn to follow.

When you keep your eyes on God with the intent to follow Him, and you trust that He’ll come through just in time, you can let go of trying to control everything and learn to follow.

Listen. God knows His plans for you (Jeremiah 29:11). They’re even good plans. But when we try to control the circumstance, complain in the waiting, and get frustrated when things don’t go our way, we’re just prolonging the waiting process. That’s not how God wants us to spend our time in the waiting valley.

Instead, He wants us to trust Him enough to let go of our heart’s desires and focus on Him. Then He can move in our hearts and life.

Even if the thing you’re praying about is God’s will, or a Godly thing, it can quickly turn into an idol. When you care more about getting that thing than you do about what God wants, it’s no longer something God is going to be pleased with because it’s taken the places in your heart that He wholly wants.

There’s nothing wrong with having hopes and dreams for the future. But it’s vital that we don’t get so lost in them that we become consumed by them, wanting them more than God’s will … or God Himself.

There’s nothing wrong with having hopes and dreams for the future. But it’s vital that we don’t get so lost in them that we become consumed by them, wanting them more than God’s will … or God Himself.

If you’re in this season today, my encouragement is to get in the Bible, worship God throughout your day, and pray for His will to be made known to you. Try and focus on today. It’s okay to allow yourself to focus on today. Because God is still working in your future so that you don’t have to. So that you can relax and trust Him. We’re reminded in Proverbs 16:9, “In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.” We might try to figure out the next year, two years, even the next decade. But God establishes steps. One at a time.

Fam, this is hard stuff. It makes me uncomfortable just typing these words sometimes. But, it’s part of the faith journey God has us all on. The more we trust Him, the less we’ll feel the need to manipulate and control. Whatever you’re waiting for will be so much better if you let God work it all out, anyways. And whatever you’re waiting for will be well worth that wait. I promise.

Whatever you’re waiting for will be so much better if you let God work it all out, anyways. And whatever you’re waiting for will be well worth that wait. I promise.

And maybe one day I’ll be writing to you from a new state. A new place. Maybe it’ll be the place I want to be, maybe it’ll be a state that was never on my radar. But either way, I know that it’ll be the place God wants me to be. Because I’m choosing to trust Him instead of myself. And in letting go, I know I’ll find walk into the best God has for me. And that, this year and every year to come, I want more than anything.

When we trust God and let Him lead, chances are, someday we might just change the world ❤

Until Next Time,

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“There is a favorite story I like to tell myself. It’s the one about how my life should turn out. But in the end I’ve discovered – I would have never been brave enough to write it as messy and marvelous as God. So, I’m choosing to take His hand and simply live it.” -Lisa Terkeurst


P.S.! I wrote this blog back in December 2018, and as I get ready to post it for all of you to read in January of 2019, I can honestly say God has really done some hard work on my heart, and it feels so much better taking things one step at a time, no matter how hard it was to get started. Something that’s a constant help to me is praying, “Give me today” when I feel anxiousness about the future starting to come on. God answers this prayer every time. And He will for you too.

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